The Start of a New Life

I was attending a developer's conference in Mississauga from March 9-11, 2010.  I was a few days late for my cycle (sorry if that's TMI), so we purchased a 2-pack of home pregnancy tests the evening of March 10.

I took the first test the following morning and got the positive symbols + |.  Startled, I woke poor Ryan up from his sleep around 6am to tell him the news.  "Honey, I think I'm pregnant".  "Did you take the test?" he asked.  "Yes, that's why I think I'm pregnant."  "Well that's cool."  Ryan was not only okay with it, he was happy about it.

Only once I had started crying, did he start to realize how anxious I was.

It's not as though we had planned this, what with him in school and all, but we had been discussing the idea of having a child since the summer.  We had decided no for the time being, but as time passed, we just kept feeling that not only was it not the right time, but we weren't sure if we'd ever feel like the right time would ever come.   I don't know if I'd ever be able to consciously make a decision like that...what with the financial, social and work impacts, it just seems so scary.

I was panicky for a bit, but I still had another long day of learning sessions, so I tried my best to put it to the back of my mind, and I continued the rest of the day.

As the day went on, I kept thinking about the whole situation and I became increasingly comfortable with the idea.  Ryan and I have a very loving relationship, we have a comfortable home, and it just felt right.

Later in the day when Ryan came home, we talked a lot more about it and he expressed his excitement.  I began to share in the excitement too!

Although apparently those home pregnancy tests can't provide a false positive (only a false negative), I decided to take the second test this morning, with the same result.  So I made an appointment to have a test done at the doctor's office early next week.

According to a few websites and iPhone apps, my due date is November 14, but I suppose that could change  after speaking with my doc.

Now I'm anxious to tell our families.  I know some people recommend sharing only after 3 months, but if you knew me, you know that would not be possible.  I'll wait for my second trimester to tell my boss and posting to everyone on Facebook, but family and close friends can share in our excitement now!

My friend Amy sent me a funny (yet poignant) quote from the ShitMyDadSays Twitter feed today.
"It's never the right time to have kids, but it's always the right time for screwing. God's not a dumbshit. He knows how it works."

And so begins a new chapter in our life.